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The last time I talked to my mom on the phone she told me I should be starting to think about retirement. She told me I should be thinking about my future. I was thinking about where I was gonna get the $150 I needed for my insurance premium and still eat. After I hung up with my mom, I played Dwarf Fortress until 6 am. I mean, she’s right, as she so frustratingly insists on being. I’ve entered the latter half โปรโมชั่นสล็อต of my 20s, and

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bad guys. There’s a YouTube video I show people sometimes when I try to explain why I find those conversations a little boring or tedious. A young man made it. He’s being very earnest when he says that he prefers games to reality, that in games he can be anything. The original video has been deleted, and the only one that exists on YouTube now was re-uploaded to mock him. Yes, it is a little funny when this young man says that he prefers Mass Effect to the idea of going to college so he can end up in a dead end job. The problem is that he is a little bit right. In games, you can be anything, and increasingly they are spaces where you can make anything. Even if you have supposedly done nothing in your life, you can point to your home base in Minecraft and say, “I made that.” You can point to your tricked-out, modded Sims game where everyone looks like they’re Instagram-famous and say, “I made that, and here’s their story.” I promised my friend I’d tell her the story of my Dwarf Fortress game when everyone inevitably died. Here’s what happened: I accidentally mined into an aquifer and everyone drowned, but before that I had a thriving economy making porcelain crafts encrusted with opals and quartz. Udidkeshak became a barony of the larger kingdom, and Shorast Abelgugash was made baron. We had been trying to build a well when, suddenly, my dormitories flooded. We lasted a few more years until everything else flooded, too. The fortress is still there. Even if everyone’s dead, the fortress will last. It’s easy to get lulled into a sense of satisfaction in games. In many ways, making you feel good and accomplished is their goal. But it isn’t real. Even if my fantasy is banal, it is a fantasy like any other. I’m of two minds about it. It feels like I am wasting my time. Maybe my parents are right, as they frustratingly insist on being. Maybe I am just coasting through my twenties, avoiding getting serious. Then again, maybe I need to indulge the fantasy of stability every once in awhile. Like so many of my peers, I need something to stop myself from drowning in the uncertainty of my reality. Gita Jackson is a nice girl who likes dating sims, cats, black lipstick, and weird old man cocktails. She’s the assistant editor for the Comedy section at Paste Magazine, and has written for Paste, Polygon and Giant Bomb about videogames, pop culture and fashion. She thinks Oscar Isaac is pretty cute. Follow her on Twitter at @xoxogossipgita

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